I found a documentary called Pregnant in America...and it looked interesting based on the description, so the cats, the dog, the embryo and I cozied up to watch it.
On the matter of WHAT KIND of birth...
Similar to the documentary Jason and I watched last week (called the Business of Being Born...and it was really good), this movie was very much biased toward non-hospital birth.
Interestingly enough, last Saturday night, when I got the first positive stick (which of course I didn't believe entirely) I started doing some research because...
...oh crap, we don't have maternity coverage in our insurance! That's what happens when you're self employed - you have fabulous insurance if you're insuring against catastrophe, but if you just want good old fashioned solid coverage, the price is just out of the realm of reasonable.
No problem. Thank God for google!
So I googled my issue and started learning more about non-traditional options that were more reasonably priced - one of which is home birth with a mid-wife.
Now, anyone who has ever had a baby conversation with me knows I've maintained since 16 years old that if I ever got pregnant, I'd demand an epideral the moment I found out. I'm pretty much as sissy as sissies get when it comes to pain or discomfort, but now I had to be realistic about things and figure out options.
Anyway, after watching the first documentary and doing other research and discussing in depth, Jason and I decided that our choice is to do a water birth at home with a mid wife. Now...the interesting part is that we live in a 900 square foot condo on the 16th floor of downtown San Diego.
Jason asked where we'd put the pool-tub-thingy-magiggy. I guess the living room in front of the giant picture window. As I'm sitting here now looking at it, it kind of cracks me up thinking that I could be going through labor floating about in a pool looking down 16 stories. It will make a good story, anyway!
We found a mid-wife online that we like so far (based on what we've read). Now it's time to make an appointment and see if she's a match for us.
On the matter of SOMETHING ELSE I got from the movie...
The documentary was definitely about the choice to have a natural childbirth and the options, however I picked up something else that struck me.
At one point the husband (movie maker) was filming his wife having a bit of a breakdown emotionally (I guess that's not unheard of during pregnancy - wink wink). She was fearing that time was moving so fast and she didn't feel prepared. I don't think she was even that close to giving birth, but she was realizing that after all this pregnancy-stuff there was actually going to be a little human being to deal with, that was completely reliant on them to know what to do. She was seriously freaking out.
What I found interesting was that, although I'm not freaking out, it occured to me that I really can't see past just being pregnant and all that THAT entails. I mean, I know cognitively that there is a little human who will arrive at the end, but right now I think I'm all consumed with just the pregnancy part.
I guess it's a process...and we're very early in it, so I have time to "get there" in my head, but it definitely got my attention. Oh yes, there's something beyond the pregnancy...something beyond this exhaustion, cramps, bloating, etc.
Oh, I have so much more to write. I think having a blog to get it all out is going to be a good thing!
But I'll cut it off for now.
I'm headed to the gym to do the legs workout I was supposed to do Friday (too tired), then yesterday (didn't get home until late). I want to make sure I don't lose the habit...so off I go to get buff legs like these (hahahaha):
Have an awesome day!
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